Vegas

I had a very negative attachment that I had to deal with for a few months.  It was insane, had many layers, and involved Zak Bagans.  I also had a side attachment during this time that also involved Zak Bagans.  Is it crazy that I am still curious about going to his museum (if I’m ever in it’s vicinity, of course).  Bottom line is I think people can be manipulated on mental and emotional levels far easier and far more frequently than I ever realized by demonic forces.  It kind of scares me to be honest. I am very in tune with my own energy and the energy of others.  People who are not tuned in (which is a lot of people) may not ever even realize they are being manipulated.

One of the good things that came out of this experience is I learned how to better protect myself.  I use a couple of different visualizations on a daily basis that involves me putting myself and my surroundings in a golden box and surrounding that fortified steel box with purple light on the outside and white and gold light on the inside.  I have also started working with St. Michael, the Archangel on a frequent basis to assist in my protection. 

I have been told by several seers that I have something with me that has been with me since birth.  I don’t know for sure, but it would make sense and it would also make my life make sense.  I died when I was one years old and just always thought that something came back with me, and there is a story that backs that up, but I don’t really want to get into that right now.

While the spiritual stuff has calmed down, life, itself has ramped up.  Between the snow and ice storms, some medical procedures, and my car acting a fool, I have had to put out a lot of cash.  It seems like every time I start to make progress on my financial goals, something happens to just wipe me back out to where I began.  I am working on not taking any of it personally.  Life is life and it will throw you curve balls, fast balls, and foul balls, and you just have to deal with it.  I am trying to be in the mental state of what can I learn and what can I do to prepare for the next round instead of taking it personally and getting emotional about it.

This is something else that I feel has come out of the negative attachment situation.  I feel much more clear headed than I have possibly ever felt.  I am very clear on my goals, and I feel I am very rooted in reality, which has not always been the case with me.  I can see clearly and I didn’t understand how unclear my “vision” has been until I could really “see”.  It reminds me of when I was younger.  In elementary school I had to do these hearing and vision tests every year at school and in one of those tests they found that I could not see shit. Everyone was dumbfounded and asked me why I didn’t say anything.  Well, if you’ve never really been able to see, you wouldn’t know unless someone fixed your sight, right?  I just thought it was really cool that other kids could see the chalkboard, much less what was on it.  I didn’t know.  I didn’t have a reference point.  But once I put on contacts for the first time, my mind was blown.  I could see the chalkboard, I could see down the hall at school, I could see the soccer ball - my whole world changed for the better.

And I feel like this right now.  Whatever that negative attachment was, whatever it was doing, whether it was the same one from the physical attacks I endured about 15 years ago or whether it was another entity sent to plague me - it is like the song says, “The enemy did everything that he could do, Oh, but look what You’ve done”.  I am more clear than ever, more stable than ever, and more capable than ever.  And even more committed than ever to following my own yellow brick road...